Power Of Words .

Until recently, I never realised the power of words, the simple addition or deletion of certain brings about a whole new meaning and uncover's layers of the other's mind. I have never been a big fan`of saying words to anyone. the simple touch, actions and feelings are more like me. However, recently my conscious was overpowered and I lost all control of my mouth hence sputtered out the words. "The words". There was a immediate rush of feeling. Not regret , never regret but maybe I said them too soon. Or maybe they didn't say them soon enough.....

 Whatever the reason, those words came out too soon and now I feel like  we've misused them and they don't feel special anymore. I can't feel the spark that these words are supposed to bring about. I have never felt this way, or maybe I have .... it's too early to say but all I know is that whatever these words mean, I feel for you. For real this time, I don't want this time to be a chance, I want this to be the real deal. Time will tell if these words can last but I really hope that they do as I don't want to say these words again . It will lose their meaning and I cannot afford that. 

I cannot afford to lose you under the weight of these words and neither can I let these words overwhelm me. We've to be balanced. I don't need you to say them back all the time but I need you to say them first come times just so I don't feel heavy at heart. These words can make and break any relationship and if I overthink this as well,I might end up breaking myself. Please don't let that happen. I cannot lose you but first and foremost I cannot lose myself..  

                                                                                                                         - Adarsh Singh